Tom, Your read was/is very poignant. I became, wh...

2009-12-12T10:26:24.395-05:00

Tom, Your read was/is very poignant.

I became, while reading a part of you.

Whirled into the chaos of what happened to you and why. I don't know all the specifics, but I feel the confusion, the feeling that you need to close your eyes, not in the childhood hopes of waking up to find a sunny day, but just to close them to rest your mind from the paintbrush going back and forth in your head. A technique. I know, I use techniques almost daily. I have no answers for you. I do have some advice from someone who went through what you are going through. I tried to go back, when I was abandoned. Tried for years. Sometimes I thought I was accepted. But not. I still cry, sometimes. I still go to therapy. I journal.New past horrific memories pop out of no where. I hurt. I blame myself. The cycle I go through, is probably the same one you float into. I would love to be uplifting, but if they don't come to you, the chances that the people you mention will love and accept you as you, aren't too high. I say this because I don't want you to self-struggle for 20 years and going as I have. Love you unconditionally. I think you know who I am. I hope so.Talk soon.

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Tom, Your read was/is very poignant. I became, wh...