Sonia Speaks

Following is a piece, a piece of the real, by my great friend Sonia Carrion.

Chow-this has been a mess a mixture
Of explosions--all colliding to meet at
One place--time--state of mind
Boston--settling into my prime

This has been a mess
This livin ain't the same
Feeling crazier than I have ever been
Feeling more in love with sin all the time

Chow--this has been a mess
A mixture of explosion
Chow--who wants to settle me down now?
Who wants to fuck me raw
Who knows what it means?
Chow--a mixture of juices
Where did you come from?
Do you know who I am?
Known you lifetimes before
Any of this
Before we were brought here
Six months ago
Who knows what it means?
Chow--to do this raw
To mix it up
Stir it up
And stew in it.
Bathe in it.
Bathe me in it--chow
Bathe in it.
This living ain't the same
It is all different
It is all gone
My world back home
But I wrote chow before I ever left
I was already here in my mind with you.

Chow--secrets
Coming out
Our progression has been amazing
Our attraction has haunted me
Still slowing
Rolling--down the hill--
Into this bliss--
Something that I have been missing for hours--
In the 12 universes I have lived through.

Chow--this is a mess
This livin ain't the same
Never has been
But will be...

Chow--down and out nowhere
But here--this livin ain't the same
Something is different
Life has sunken in
Finally
Feel like I am living
Chow--this has been a mess
This livin ain't the same
Pinch my veins
To hold my blood back
It will spill all over you
If you don't watch it
Something tells me I
Should not be writing this
But my heart won't stop
Chow--this has been a mess
This livin ain't the same
Finally
So--when you go back
Remember to tell me hi
And sit with me
My lap is welcoming
And feels nice--warm
But show me no love
Don't tease me--just say hi
So all this chow is
Chow--this has been a mess
Getting better
Getting there
Getting somewhere?

Chow--take it all in
But don't wear on the arteries
Keep yourself pumping
Stay on the line--source feed
Life is only there when you want it
Life is only there when you take it.
Feel it.
Consciousness is a lie.
It is life that is truth.
Who to talk to now?
Hate is the opposite of love.
Indifference means nothing to me.
Don't you try to wrestle with my mind.
It is not there--
It is in the clouds always.
And that is where it stays--
With my heart--
Never wants to come down.
Never wants to come down.
Never.
Chow...
This livin ain't the same.