The Hard Part

I don't envision a very long life for myself. Like I think my life will run out before my work does. I've--designed it that way.

--Townes Van Zandt

Originality
not the goal
Response
replaces genesis as the first book
in the Writer's Bible

the Bible
it's a book
every book
what I like
what I dislike
what I am
could be
and couldn't dream of

the Bible can't fit on a shelf
or in a bag
it's inside Me
and You
the thing that connects Us
to the muse
to each other
so We gotta read it
with our bones
and muscles
and skin
and brains

my success will come through
Collaborations
good, pure, encouraging, dynamic
knowing Who I know
seeing the Faces that I see
feeling the Love that I feel

everyday
smiles and
questions and
lessons and
breakthroughs and
breakdowns and
handouts and
handshakes and
a lot of Warmth
in an unreasonably cold Spring

Intention
a Make-or-Break proposition
what do I want to say?
what do I want to do?
what do I want to feel?
what do I want to know?
who do I want to love?
how do I want to love?

these questions
Me asking You
wondering how what You say is going to validate
or confirm
or challenge
but not change
what I know
but am too afraid to say

questions beg answers
even when rhetorical
because why would I ask
if I didn't care to know

I want You
a fact I've deliberately buried
so far down
because to the best of my knowledge
You never read my blog
and You'd never guess that it's You
(if you're thinking that it's you
you're probably wrong
unless you're You)

Face to Face
not our first conversation
but never before, never so
You speak
I listen
I respond
You listen
You pick up where
I leave off
I continue when
You reflect
until We reach
The Point
(even though The Point got interrupted the first time)

easy
unexpected
exciting
unlike my MindSoul friendships
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We are
MindSoulBody

Across your face
Through your questions
On your stares
confusion
fear
necessity
all normal
and manageable with
time, desire and strength

but this
--Us--
is not in the Moment
a while ago, no question
some time soon, I believe
but Now
is the Feeling
something special
by itself
happening
Now
and Now
and Now
and Now

man
I can't wait to see You again
it makes all the sense
and no sense
that We'd been so close
for so long
with no connection
until
We Connected

so much Work
so much Fun
so much Beauty
so much More

right now
back then
and soon enough

this is the break between
my mind
and
our realization